You know those days when you can't focus on anything because you have so much to do? And you just want to finish it all just so you can go to sleep. That has been been me lately...only about ten times worse. Needless to say, the last few weeks have been quite stressful. I don't really know why everything seems to happen at once, but it does. All of a sudden, I've got loads of homework, that I didn't have before, troubles with many friends, and on top of all that, I have felt sick beyond relief. As depressing as this sounds, I had to say it. And the only reason I had to was to explain the causes of...well, what I think are the causes of my increasing OCDness. Every day, the first thing I do when I get home is make a list of what I have to do that night. And, of course, it's not just your average list of homework mixed with some sparce chores around the house. No. This list consists of everything from eating dinner to taking out my contact. I feel that if I don't put EVERYTHING on the list I'm going to forget to do it. Also, for some reason, my new "obsession" is that I need to have every. single. thing. on my desk at the same angle. My paper is perfectly parallel to my calculator, and my pencil and eraser are perfectly aligned with that. I noticed this the other day during Chemistry, but I didn't really think anything of it. The next day I found myself compulsively rotating items to match up at the perfect angle. Yeah, it made me feel slightly crazy. My need to be places on time, or even way early, has gotten pretty bad too. I leave, on average, ten minutes before I need to leave. There are a few other things like this that I have noticed recently, and I'm sure none of these things were true before my stress level reached this level. I kind of want to scream. Hmm..maybe that would help. Oh dear, I need winter break.Thursday, December 8, 2011
Obsessive Compulsive?
You know those days when you can't focus on anything because you have so much to do? And you just want to finish it all just so you can go to sleep. That has been been me lately...only about ten times worse. Needless to say, the last few weeks have been quite stressful. I don't really know why everything seems to happen at once, but it does. All of a sudden, I've got loads of homework, that I didn't have before, troubles with many friends, and on top of all that, I have felt sick beyond relief. As depressing as this sounds, I had to say it. And the only reason I had to was to explain the causes of...well, what I think are the causes of my increasing OCDness. Every day, the first thing I do when I get home is make a list of what I have to do that night. And, of course, it's not just your average list of homework mixed with some sparce chores around the house. No. This list consists of everything from eating dinner to taking out my contact. I feel that if I don't put EVERYTHING on the list I'm going to forget to do it. Also, for some reason, my new "obsession" is that I need to have every. single. thing. on my desk at the same angle. My paper is perfectly parallel to my calculator, and my pencil and eraser are perfectly aligned with that. I noticed this the other day during Chemistry, but I didn't really think anything of it. The next day I found myself compulsively rotating items to match up at the perfect angle. Yeah, it made me feel slightly crazy. My need to be places on time, or even way early, has gotten pretty bad too. I leave, on average, ten minutes before I need to leave. There are a few other things like this that I have noticed recently, and I'm sure none of these things were true before my stress level reached this level. I kind of want to scream. Hmm..maybe that would help. Oh dear, I need winter break.
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